Yes, I'm Guilty Of This; You Should Know This.

Anonymous asked: Were you serious when you called The V's lesbian?

No.  Lol.

I feel like lesbians write the best music about being heartbroken and being in love.

How do you live so happily while I am sad an broken down?

I’m at a loss for words right now.  I’m heartbroken.  I guess there is no other way to put that.  My heart has been broken by a boy that I gave everything to.  I gave him absolutely everything and was willing to give him more.  I want to make him happy.  I want to make him so very happy.

I guess he was not ready for commitment.  And I guess that is okay.  I mean, if I love him, I’m supposed to let him go, right?  I have come across a lot of excerpts and quotes saying that if you love someone, you are supposed to go for it; you are supposed to chase them and go after them until they love you.  I want to do that.  I want to keep going after him until he loves me.  But we’ve already been through a relationship, and he does not love me that way.  Is that enough for me to give up?  Should I give up?  I do not want to; that probably means that I should not.

If his friend is all I can be, I should be just that and be the best friend I can possibly be.  I have to let go.  I cannot let my anxiety and depression overtake me anymore.  I do not want to use them as excuses.  I need to make a change.  I need to be better.  I want to be better, for him and those around me.  I have to be happy, even if I have to feign it for a while.

It took an entire summer without him to forget about him momentarily a year ago…  But he came back.  He came back.  This time, I do not think he will come back.  I want him to come back.  I want him to come back so very badly.  No matter what he does to me or anyone else, I love him and I want to be with him.

My greatest mistake was falling in love with a boy that does not believe in love.

My godmother died this morning.

Next to Ms. Posio, she was one of the strongest women I’ve ever known.

I’ve never heard my grandmother cry as much as I have the past week.

I’m so scared.  My grandparents are sick.  I don’t know what I’ll do without them.

God, please…

It’s really easy for me to go back and miss Hernan.

It was really hard letting him go.  That relationship really took its toll on me.  I was upset for months.

“How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down?”

My grandparents are sick.

I don´t know what to do.

I seriously blame my emotional instability on all of the douche-packers I’ve liked and dated in the past.

How am I supposed to feel after being left for being too short/skinny?

How am I supposed to feel after a boy I gave everything to woke up one day and decided he didn’t love me anymore?

How am I supposed to feel after a boy that promised me everything just stopped talking to me out of the blue?

I’m in a terrible funk now and it’s all because of that stupid blonde boy with the icy blue eyes.  I was deceived by his eloquent words and charming smile; I suppose anyone would be.

I don’t want to be fooled anymore, though.  I want to get it right for once in my miserable (lol first-world problems) life.  I’ve been through enough lies and bullshit and bullshit and lies.

I just want a nice boy to take me out and make me feel pretty and happy again.